I Need To Try Harder

So last Saturday, the mother of one of my closest friends passed away. She only lived about 3 months after the cancer diagnosis. It has been a sad few months. But for sure, one thing this experience of death and loss is teaching me is that I need to be a better person.

First of all I need to be far more patient with my mom. Over the last few years, I have noticed her slow down considerably. She is moving slower and at times is a little more unsure of herself. I have been impatient with her I guess because I expect the mom of a few years and also because noticing these changes scares and frustrates me.

I bought my mom a Tivo unit for her birthday/mother's day. I wanted her to be able to watch the shows that she likes. Using the VCR was not the best system and I knew I would never be able to teach her how to use a DVR, plus I got a wicked deal. The best part is that if she wants a show recorded, I can set it up online. Easy peasy! There have been some kinks but over all this system works really well. If I let it, the Tivo could be a source of great frustration for me which would result in me being short and crusty to mom, but I am determined not to let it. My mom is 63 and any buddy's mom was 60. Yikes.

RIP

It's Been Awhile

Wow, it's been a long time since I have posted. And so much has happened. First I decided not to move back in with my mom. We are both adults very much stuck in our ways and we would butt head on a daily basis. At least we know that now. It is sad but exciting at the same time. The worst part is that I have to wait until October of 2010 to finish off my car loan. That will free up $700 a month that can go towards other debt, helping out mom, home repairs, investing or just fun stuff like vacations. So that realization is a little disappointing but I am still dedicated to being debt free in the next five years, I just have to readjust my plan.

Also I broke a friend out of the drunk tank last week. That was a new and unpleasant experience. She seems to be spiralling at this time and I am not sure what can be done to either slow or stop the spiral. It is very tiring to be her friend right now, but I care and I know she would do it for me so I will just endure.

Lastly but definitely not leastly, another close friend lost her mother to cancer. She was diagnosed about two and a half months ago and it progressed very rapidly. I haven't talked to her as she has not answered phone etc. which of course is understandable so I just left a message telling her I was thinking of her and her family. And really that's all I can do.